Ohhh boy. I am so excited as I type this post, I almost can't stand it. I am literally one of the most talented radio listeners to ever walk this planet. Ever since I moved to Boise, I have been robbing the nice folks down at 103.3 of their many give-aways...and loving it. I don't know how I do it, but somehow I have mastered the art of being caller number 9. I've won:

-Gavin Degraw tickets

-$30 (twice)

-An invite to the exclusive Kissmass party

-A Wii

-Entered for BSU/Oregon football game tickets

and NOW....wait for it...

ADAM LAMBERT TICKETS!!

(I realize the picture was a dead give away but I enjoy dramatic effect)

I cannot even begin to describe to everyone how completely excited I am about this concert! Kyndra told me he was coming and BAM, I won tickets the next day! I had heard that anytime they play his song, they would give tickets to caller number 9 sooo I got in my car, heard the song, and called em up! I was actually caller number 7 and was so bummed but I hung up and called right back and (yep, you guessed it) was calla numba nine baby! The conversation with Kyndra afterwards went as follows:

Me: How much do you love me?

Kyndra: Umm, a lot? Why?

Me: No, no..how much do you REALLY love me?

Kyndra: I love you A LOT..why??

Me: Because I just won us some ADAM LAMBERT TICKETS!

Kyndra: WHAT. Are you kidding me right now?

Me: Nope

Kyndra: Are you serious? You better not be joking with me.

Me: I'm so dead serious

Kyndra: You are the best sister ever! If there was an award for coolest person, I would have to give it to you.

Aw, the glory of another fabulous win! I am so hysterically eager for July 19th..it's going to be epic. EPIC. Please just take a moment to examine the beautiful man in the picture above, I mean really. He is so gorgeous and every time he screams the high notes in his songs...oh man, my heart skips a few beats and I get all fluttery. I'm hoping that since it's at such a small venue, I'll be able to meet him....and then I have every intention of grabbing him and kissing him nice and good. There are high hopes that he'll turn straight for me people...let's keep our fingers crossed! Sigh...he's beautiful. Thank you 103.3 (yet again).

It's been WAY too long since I've been on here. I'd like to say that's due to lots of exciting and time consuming (not to mention compensating) activities but, alas, it's merely because I have been too lazy to get on here and journal. I know, LAME. That being said, there isn't really a whole lot to update on, other than I have been working at the Reel Theatre part time (and yes, loving the stench of popcorn and grease that seem to seep into my pores every day). It hasn't been too bad and at least it's a job! I keep telling myself I'm lucky to have at least one job when so many people don't have any! I'm still looking and applying for a second (possibly even third) job though. I've had several interviews and potential prospects BUT do I have a second job yet? Um, that would be a NO. I need money here people!

Besides all the work junk I've just been working on my online classes (still bitter about book prices and the essential RIP OFF that they are, but that's another rant I'll spare you all of for now). Quite honestly my life is pretty bo-ring right about now, but I keep telling myself at least I'm out of Rexburg for awhile! PLUS the weather has been ridiculous lately and I'm starting to get a little upset so, on behalf of everyone in this deary place, let's get a move on summer!

That's really all I've got for now, but I promise to be better about getting on here. (Mostly that is a promise to myself as there aren't many people who actually read this BUT it's a gesture.)

Will work for...money

Job searching. Yuck. I have been everywhere and only had a couple of places get back to me. I hate this process! I need money people, do you not understand?! I've found a couple of places that would be perfect, so I'm hoping to hear back from them soon, but all I have concluded from these last few days is this: I HATE JOB SEARCHING. Yep, that's all. It's stressful and frustrating. I'm a catch people, I really am! We'll see I guess....fingers crossed!

Smile break.

This truly put a smile on my face tonight.

Life is good.

Happy.
Stressed out still..but happy.
Good things come when you least expect them.
I love the feeling of being giddy.
I love not being able to stop smiling.
I love that feeling when something unexpected makes your heart jump with excitement.
I love the unexpectedness of a crush.
I love the giggling like a little girl.
I love getting a random phone call from that person.
I love randomly seeing his facebook status' dedicated to me.
I love having text message conversations with him that are completely flirtatious.
Sigh...life is good right now.

oh college.

Dear procrastination,
You are my closest friend and worst enemy. You cause me much stress and occasional heartburn. Yes, you do allow me to do things I love instead of things I don't, but then your cousin karma inevitably makes a visit and blesses me with that wonderful cycle of misery mentioned above. Please don't be upset, but I have high ambitions of breaking up with you in the near future. I'm sure we will both take this separation pretty hard, but it's time. Thank you for all of the good memories...

love, Brianne

Now that that's over, I should probably go work on my 2 research papers, brochure, quizzes, tests, projects, blah, blah, blah....

Oh College..

Brianne and Johnny do Rexburg.

Monday was a crazy day. I actually made it to ALL 3 of my classes (for the first time in a couple weeks) AND even got up early enough to shower before I went. That is a huge accomplishment too considering I reached this semester's "point of no longer caring what I look like" a long time ago. As shocking as that is, it wasn't the crazy part of the day. On my way home from class I got a text message from my friend Johnny saying something to the effect of "I thought about coming to see you today." Naturally I replied with "umm and why didn't you?!" In a crazy sequence of events that all occurred in a matter of about half an hour, I got a message saying "I'm on my way!"...and so it began.

For those of you who are asking yourselves, "Who in the world is Johnny?" Well, I will tell you. His dad and my dad met when they were about 13 or so, and became best friends. As a result, our families have been close ever since and Johnny and I grew up together making crazaaay memories that we still laugh about on a regular basis. We're kind of what you would call "dorks." Yes, it's true.

Anyways, Johnny arrived in the most exciting (or, ya know, not) place on earth right as I was getting off work and I was SO excited! We went out to dinner at Applebees (mmmm) and then came home to look up something random online...which led to a discussion of how we wanted to go hot tubbing...which then turned into a search for hotel room prices...which quickly led to him buying one. Basically, if you haven't caught on, we're really random and spontaneous..and awesome.

Tuesday I skipped my classes to show Johnny around campus and get him hooked on Cary Judd (see previous post if you are still unaware of who that glorious man is). The following are pretty typical Brianne and Johnny.

We had a blast and made some more memories (not to mention inside jokes) that I'm sure we'll laugh about for a long time to come. It was a quick trip but totally worth it! Love you Johnny!

Obsession #2

Awhile back I said I would use this journal to share different obsessions I have with those of you who read. Well, today is finally the time for confession #2:

Cary Judd...

Now, for those of you who don't know who that is, let me explain. Cary Judd is an amazing musician that I discovered by accident when I was 15 (and anyone who knows me well knows that I REALLY do not like sharing my music with people, especially new or undiscovered artists that I find.) So, needless to say, I kept this glorious discovery to myself....that is, until I moved to Rexburg for school and found out that he was LIVING IN REXBURG TOO! Since that day I have been to probably 4 or 5 concerts, own every song he's released, and even have one of his official t-shirts. He is my "feel good" music (you know, the music I can listen to in any mood and feel good about life.)

Basically I have admired and swooned over this man from afar for a good 6 years. He is not only a mind-blowing musician, but he is gorgeous.

Exhibit A:

Exhibit B:

His eyes are the most heart stopping shade of blue I have ever seen, his smile lines make me weak in the knees, and his curly hair is absolutely adorable. Basically I would marry this man in 2 seconds if he were to ask (and no, that is not even an exaggeration.)

Last night, however, this love obsession came to a heartbreaking discovery...Cary Judd is moving to California. I know, how will I continue living? I'm not sure. So as one last hoorah before he left, Cary had a concert at my friend's local club that my good friend Camilla and I were front and center for.

I stood there watching him with butterflies in my stomach the entire time. Of course I sang along to every song and got excited when we would make momentary eye contact. Aww, it was fabulous. Pictures were (naturally) essential as well.

And after about an hour of waiting (and, I'll admit, somewhat stalker-like staring), we finally got the guts up to ask him for a picture with him to document his last concert in the Burg. It actually went a little something like:

Me: "So, Cary Judd, I won't lie, I'm really depressed that you're leaving"
Cary: "Well, start doing drugs. Drink alcohol. Whatever helps you cope"
Me: "HAHAHA I just might..I love you THAT much"
Cary: "Aw, that's sweet of you"
Me: "So can we get a picture before you leave us?"
Cary: "Of course!" (He walks over and puts his arms around us)

And then:



Aw, perfection.

It's crazy to think I randomly stumbled upon his music in high school, and now I've met him and seen him in person several times.

Here's to you Cary Judd. You continually put a smile on my face and make my heart skip a beat. Your music never gets old. I think it's safe to say I love you.

Change.

Sometimes change is necessary. Change for the better, change to something new and different, change to something that makes me the best I can be, rather than settling for less. Sometimes change feels impossible and a long way off. Sometimes change is difficult to obtain and choosing to give up appears to be indispensable.

but..

Here and now I choose to change. I choose to be happier. I choose to be pleased with the person I am. I choose to feel adequate. I choose to feel worthy. I choose to be the daughter of God I know I am. I choose to obtain the blessings I know it possible to have.

This change is a long way off. It will take time and it will take effort. It will take tears, I am sure. It will take the support of friends and loving family. It will take prayer and scripture study. It will take fasting and praying some more. Yes, it will take time.

but..

Change starts today.

this whole adult thing.

Big Decisions are being made.

I am realizing more and more everyday just how much is really expected of me since I reached adulthood...and I must say I'm not enjoying this realization. As of right now I have multiple situations for this upcoming summer to choose between, and while none are certain just yet, it's put me in one very big pickle. Luckily my parents are willing to listen to me call and vocally work through my options and dilemmas on a daily basis. I definitely love them for that. I will surely figure it out though...and perhaps someday I will get the hang of this whole 'adult' thing. That's the goal for now.

Wish me luck.